Some are so accustomed to being hated, that’s the fix, stronger than any drug. They don’t even hate others, but they, in fact, need the loathing. That’s what they’re addicted to: others hating them and showing it on a regular basis. I never realized that it’s not just self-loathing, but others detesting them is also what they crave. And they may not even know it. There’s still that hope there that it will get better and this time will be different. But in the end, it’s easier to accept pure hatred than it is to change. It’s the normal that they’re used to.
The enemy has succeeded in getting that grasp, whether it’s their mind or their heart, or both. Regardless, the light in their eyes is ever so slowly being dimmed, the fire snuffed to just embers. “You are loved” bounces off like a racquetball from a wall. They’re surrounded by the wrong force field. Their truth has been skewed. And no matter how we try or how hard we cry, it is God Alone Who convinces them that what they trust is the opposite of truth. It hurts like screaming hot flames seeing them that close to true freedom and watching them choose lies again.
It’s almost automatic to wonder what more we could have done, and the truth is: there’s always more. We could’ve given one more hug, said one more prayer, and shown one more smile. But another truth is this: they made the choice.
Praying for those today that believe the lies, hope for better days, and the families that continue to pray. Never stop tearing down those force fields; the truth could be right at the surface now, no longer buried deep within. Breakthrough is coming in Jesus’ name.