On my way home from errands today, I decided to wash the car. I love a good clean car. My kids typically don’t appreciate a beautifully, immaculate vehicle the way I do. This is the reason I have to clean out the candy wrappers and trash on a regular basis or just decide, “Ok, this is the way my car is going to be until they’re 18 or maybe 25ish.” (Surely I won’t be toting them around at that point, right?) So I washed the car and even took the time to use the Weathershield, the extra protection from all the elements heading my way. Man, that sounds nice, doesn’t it?
So I took my usual route and in front of me is a SUPER-dirty SUV. You know the kind where the ick is so thick they have to use the wiper so they can see out the back windshield; the kind where a kid uses their finger to remind them sweetly to “WASH ME.”
I think, “Oh my goodness, you need to clean your car! Are you kidding?? How do you let your car get that dirty?” Then it occurs to me how judgmental I’m being, and my mind does a U-turn, saying, “Wait a minute, wait a minute. Your car was dirty not even ten minutes ago.” And I think in a sheepish rebuttal, “Well, not that dirty. I said I love a clean car. These people obviously don’t. These people are different because they don’t clean their car in the same way or as often as I do.”
Then I think to myself…“Well guess what, Mrs. Judgy McJudgerPants, (my self is arguing with my self now. This happens more than I’d care to admit.) it’s probably because of where they live. Maybe they live on a dirt road. You’ve been there before. Battling that dirt is like brushing your teeth while munching on gluten-free, Double Stuf Oreos. But it sure is nice driving along in your pretty, clean car on a Monday, in front of God, Jesus, and everyone, huh?”
It was right then that I felt that quiet voice God uses say to my soul, “Their dirt is the same as your dirt. There’s no level of ugly dirtiness that I can’t wash. The same water that washed your car can wash theirs and make it just as beautiful, just as sparkly, and just as shiny as your car. The same blood that Jesus chose to spill on the cross for your sins applies to theirs too.” Then my mind says “Duh.” and I continue to drive like none of those thoughts just happened in my head.
So if you’re struggling today with how much God loves you or things that you’ve done that nobody else could possibly do, I say “PUH-leeeaaase. My dirt is the same as your dirt.” I may look all shined up now, (I sit here in bib overalls…very shiny.) but I surely haven’t always been. My car has looked like it’s been through a swamp only to discover I’ve chosen to trek through a couple of mud bogs. All of that takes time to wash off. I remember thinking while I sat in my own dirt/sin: But you don’t know about that one time…Remember when I said?…I can’t forgive so and so yet…
All that dirt can be washed away and we get to watch it swirl down the drain. The only difference between your dirt and my dirt is that I chose to use the water provided to wash it away today. Just like the car wash, we decide to go. We get to choose to let Jesus cover every single ugly thing in our lives. Lord, there were so many ugly things in my life, so many bad choices and wrong roads that led exactly where I didn’t want to be. And I would surely rather have kept it all hidden, so that it looked like I’ve been clean allllll along, the “I-know-more-than-you/How-do-you-let-your-car-get-that-dirty?” mentality. That’s our fleshy nature and that’s what we have to hand over to God to deal with.
Jesus can get rid of all your dirt every single time you allow Him to. Don’t you dare let the enemy of our souls tell you that your dirt could never be washed away.