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Doubt-Filled Shoe


There’s a line in a song, Do It Again by Elevation Worship, that I simply can’t let go: “I’m still in Your hands, this is my confidence, You’ve never failed me yet.” Now, let me start off by saying that I adore this song. I truly want God to “do it again” when it comes to my healing. When I read about Lazaurus or the woman with the blood issue, I think “God, where’s my miracle? Do it for me too! Do it again!” And I believe that He will. There’s a super-good reason He hasn’t done it completely. And even if He doesn’t heal me, for whatever reason, I’ll be ok with that. (It took me YEARS to get to this point in my thinking.) So even though I love this song, there’s a sticking point for me. It’s in the 3-letter word: “yet.” 

“Yet” is defined in the MacMillan dictionary as being “Used in something that has not happened or is not true at a particular time but will probably happen.” (Emphasis added by me.) Isn’t that just like us? God has NEVER failed us, but we, being the faith-filled believers we are, need to leave that space there…juuuuuuuuust in case. Like we’re waiting for the other doubt-filled shoe to drop. It’s been a few years, you know, of God being God and never once has He ever failed anyone, no matter the situation. BUT we have this “confidence” that seems a little twisted to me. We have confidence that He’s never failed any of us…yet? 

There’s power in our words (Proverbs 18:21: The tongue has the power of life and death) and some can say, “Oh you’re overthinking this” which guaranteed I am. It’s what I do. And then I write about it. 

There have been many times in my life when I’ve thought (and prayed) “God! If you can, then why aren’t you??” If you can heal me, why am I dealing with this pain? If you can save that guy, why is he going through all this mess? If you can calm the storm, why is it still raging? I don’t have a problem telling you this because I don’t think I’m alone in my thinking. And I know there’s a reason, but I don’t know it. And that’s another issue I have, WHY in the world can’t I know the reason, God?? (I’m chuckling as I type this, picturing Him shaking His head, amused. He gets me.) 

I don’t think adding “yet” to the statement that He’s never failed us screams confidence of any sort. It’s amazing how much doubt a 3-letter word can hold. It speaks to our level of faith. We have to leave that door open, just in case. What if we’re wrong? What if we’re wrong about all of it? What if THIS is the time that God is going to fail us? We certainly can’t tell we’re trusting in Him by the words that come out of our mouths at times. If we truly believed that God has never and will not ever fail us, would we speak differently? Act differently? Go about our days and life goals differently? Of course! Where is our faith? He’s never failed me. He’s never failed us. 


The Miracle of New Life


God is so cool! I woke up and decided that this was the day that He had made. I will rejoice (which I think means to do a happy dance more than once a day–when’s the last time you did a happy dance?) and be glad! Glad that I’m alive! Glad that I’m breathing! And even more glad that there’s NEW LIFE breathing inside of me!! God has blessed us with another child, our second, and we couldn’t be more ecstatic! I adored being pregnant the first time and I think the second time is even more fun…aside from the typical bouts with some “morning” sickness. That’s just a lie from the pits of hell and any gorgeously pregnant woman in her first trimester knows this stubborn illlness is not just for the first part of the day! (God bless the ones who struggle with it for the entire pregnancy—my prayers are with you!) NEW LIFE. Our lives are made new by the Most Holy of Holies Himself and He blesses us with miracles even though we may not deserve them. God is SO COOL! Our lives are a constant lesson in trust…trusting Him with our hearts and our heads, allowing Him to guide us because not only does He have the plan, but He has the very best plan! My prayers today are with those aforementioned of course, but also with those on the fence regarding their baby. Babies are a gift from God. God bless you and guide you as you make decisions about the miracle growing within you.