My Special Specialist


As I sit here, my body hurts, my head aches, I am too tired to function, yet yesterday, I stood at the desk of another specialist. A special specialist. One that I believe I prayed to find. One I traveled hours to see. I refuse to give up hope and faith that this is the intervention I spoke to God, the one, the only about. The receptionists are friendly, even remembering my name after the initial meeting. The doctor is knowledgeable and informative, with answers and everything! A virus. In my brain. That’s what he believes this is. Well, THERE’S one I hadn’t thought of. I’m sure that some thought it was indeed “all in my head,” but I didn’t figure this was the way they meant it.
At first, I felt panic. Then within the same 1/2 minute, I felt an “Ahhhh…” moment. I felt as though this could actually be and make sense with regard to my symptoms and more importantly why the symptoms were not going away. The doctor couldn’t speak fast enough concerning the next step. I’m not certain what he said for a good minute after his life-changing opinion, but I know supplements are involved. His idea is to build the body up, boost the immune system (you know, the one I tore down after a decade of drinking and smoking, yeah, that one) so that I am able to fight against this infection. Honestly, the idea exhausts me right now. I feel much like a deflated exercise ball. Tomorrow will be a new day. I will fight tomorrow. Tonight, I rest in the knowledge that God’s got a plan and He’s in control.


About chronicchristian

I am a mother of 2 children who I realized not long ago I can't call "toddlers" anymore, married to the best man in the world for 12 years and chasing after what God wants for my life. I currently deal with some symptoms and have for the past 9 years, that resemble an autoimmune illness. Currently my own body is attacking my thyroid (seems it could find something better to do) and the doctors I've seen are at a loss as to what the plan might be. I believe God has the very best plan and that He is doing something awesome and she who guards her lips guards her life. This blog is good therapy. Maybe not for you, but definitely for me. God is good and I intend to prove it.

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