WhineFest with an “h”

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5K, schmiveK…that’s my attitude these days…the goal seems so far away and so unachievable it’s ridiculous. My body keeps rebelling against anything I try to change about it. My knees feel like rods go through them when i get back from a 3-mile walk. My ankles feel as though needles are being stabbed into them one by one. My muscles feel like jello when I’m done and not the good kind, like grape or cherry, they’re like lemon with pears in it.
I’m stuck between pushing myself and then not pushing too hard because I don’t want to end up back where I started. Which is in a chair for months. (Anyone who thinks that would be fun, please take the time to really think about it.)
I have a 2-week pass to a gym and I think I’m gonna use it today. My motivation has arrived for the day. If my body is going to hurt, I may as well have a good reason, right? Anyone with any input on this, especially a fellow CFS’er, would be highly welcomed to respond!
Thank you for listening to me gripe.

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About chronicchristian

I am a mother of 2 children who I realized not long ago I can't call "toddlers" anymore, married to the best man in the world for 12 years and chasing after what God wants for my life. I currently deal with some symptoms and have for the past 9 years, that resemble an autoimmune illness. Currently my own body is attacking my thyroid (seems it could find something better to do) and the doctors I've seen are at a loss as to what the plan might be. I believe God has the very best plan and that He is doing something awesome and she who guards her lips guards her life. This blog is good therapy. Maybe not for you, but definitely for me. God is good and I intend to prove it.

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