Just got back from a Women’s Conference and boy, lemme tell ya, God was there!! It was exciting and interesting and nurturing and….EXHAUSTING! I’ve found that with CFS, it doesn’t matter how much sleep you get, or how good of sleep you get, you can only prepare so much. The frustration is always there, lurking beneath the surface, waiting for that “perfect” moment to rise up like a Black Beauty or Flicka, pre-training days. If I don’t conscientiously take (MAKE) the time to spend with God, my days quickly become overwhelming. They are too much for me to handle. Thank God for God! He knows this.
I have found that if I continue to look to Him, even for small things (*I prayed re: a pickle jar a couple nights ago.) that eventually it becomes a habit. Then, not only do we get the help we need, but we also get closer and closer with the Maker of Heaven and Earth! Dude! (Sometimes when life gets tough, just pretend, if only for a couple seconds that you’re a stereotypical surfer…maybe it’s just me.) Isn’t that mind-blowing? God equips us to handle situations and setbacks THROUGH Him. As long as we have God on our side, we’re going THROUGH. Through the temptations, through the sicknesses, through the frustrating days, through the I’m-so-mad-I-could-spit-days, through the I’ve-got-so-many-things-to-do-days; He’ll carry us THROUGH. If you know you’re on the winning side, doesn’t that make it easier to deal? A lot of times, I know what or whose side I’m on, I just forget and need to be reminded. Thank God He’s faithful even when we’re not!
Phillipians 4:13 says that we can do all things through Christ Who strengthens us. My focus before had always been o nthe ALL in the sentence. Over the past couple days, I have been made aware of the idea that it has to be through Him or we’re it’s like we’re ridin’ a carousel at the mall. We’re busy, but getting nowhere.